Friday, February 27, 2015
So... My mom bought me something ...
And well it's a good thing I had some moolah to buy a casing for my new pink love :)
Cat has an orange MacAir and I have a pink one :)
Good things come to those who wait.
Thank you God for this :)
I have been asking for it for quite a while and last time it wasn't time yet but thank You for listening to me and answering my prayers.
I am very grateful.
I know I can't have everything NOW and I can't always get what I want because maybe it's not for me right now or maybe I would get something way better and all I have to do is just ask for it and wait .
I know I sound like a spoiled person getting items that I asked for before .. But I just want to say Thank You.
at 9:58 PM
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
Hmmm.. My mom is going to buy me a MacBook ? Tomorrow?
I'll just have to wait and see.
I'm so excited!
I hope she gets me that big one not the tiny one . I would want to have a bigger screened computer though .
I'll just have to give her the one I have now if ever she would buy me that computer that I want .
Oh please oh please oh please!!!
at 8:49 PM
Monday, February 23, 2015
I havent been sleeping that well lately.
My mom often wakes me up because I make noises when I sleep.
No I'm not snoring but I grind my teeth .
"Pagot" in my dialect .
I don't know why that happens.
I mean I know I used to have this when I was younger and now it's back and it's not good to have something like this.
at 6:39 AM
Sunday, February 22, 2015
Thank You God for today :)
I spent my Sunday with my mom and my relatives and my super cute 6 year old cousin.
Food was good :)
I look fat. Ugh! Wrong angle. I am not that far.. Yiiiii!
He's my cutest kid cousin ever..
Can't believe how much he has grown in 3 years.
He's so tall for his age.
His first language is English like me and he has difficulty in speaking in Filipino.
Unfortunately for me I sound so Filipino now. Cat said I have an accent.. (Everyone has an accent cat told me)
Hmm so my accent is bunny accent?
Yeah food was really really good. ;)
Chicken, shrimp sinigang, crispy pata and Uhmm I forgot the name of the veggie dish..
What are friends are for?
Eeek! I look so tan now..
Cat likes me to look tan. I'm kinda still thinking as to whether I like being tan or not.
I miss my cat..
at 9:45 PM
Saturday, February 21, 2015
I am sick .
But this is just probably mental exhaustion. I'm trying so hard not to frown.
I've never experienced this before.
The stress is harder than the stress that I usually have before taking the bar..
My temperature is a bit high but I just need to sleep this off.
I talked to my mom about this .. My worries about cat.. She shared with me how it was like with my dad. So I asked her how she dealt with the stress. She told me not to think about it too much because thinking too much about it would make me go crazy.
I just feel so helpless. I want to atleast try to make cat feel less alone and that everything is going to be okay but how can you say that verbally .. And long distance.. And he's so fricking too far away from me to let him feel that he's not alone.
Mama said all men are alike and they need to be babied .. To be be reassured.. But my situation with cat is so different.. How do I do that long distance?
Damn.. I am so stressed out.
Cat just needs to go out and destress and then think what he should do next and he should pull himself together soon.
I hate seeing him this way..
I wish I knew what to do..
at 4:13 PM
So this is how a girlfriend feels like..
Can't sleep till he arrives home safely.
Worried about him often.
I'm trying not to be a nag.
I can't help it that I'm worried.
I just want him to be safe .
I'll be able to sleep well later on when I know he arrived home.
It's 6:04 am his time ..
-worried gf -
at 12:05 AM
Friday, February 20, 2015
He’ll hurt you time and time again, but the pain seems worth it
He’s the one who ruined your entire world with one text, but you still wait by the phone
He’s crazy about everything except for you
He never feels the need to make excuses, so you do it for him
He won’t tell you the truth, but you’re always awaiting his next story
You wake up thinking about him, but never next to him
He has no time for you, but you have all the time in the world for him
He’s the one you compare every subsequent guy to, but he never thinks twice about you
When have I stopped becoming an I?
I guess being in a relationship would make you stop thinking about only yourself and you start worrying about the other person more.
I am a bit stressed right now since the person I care about is stressed about somethings that is happening with his life.
Since yesterday I have been getting a headache and I know that this stress isn't mine but I'm just feeling someone else's stress.
I feel helpless on what to do.
How can I do anything to atleast help him feel better? Being too far away makes it stressful. I don't know what to do.
I am trying to deal with the stress..
Trying now to frown ..
If things get super serious with us I would have to get used to this I guess..
I have only thought about just myself most of the time and now that I am in this relationship I would have to worry about another person. If we would work out this worrying would be on permanent basis .
Am I ready for that?
It's a lot of hard work ..
I just wish I had a manual on what to do.
I do want to please him and make him feel better but right now I don't know what to do..
at 12:09 PM